impia-dea

Sorry I have been so quiet lately. After the surgery I've been hit pretty bad by sickness due to a bad immune system and quite a crippling depression. I don't really know what to do about it as I have withdrawn quite a bit again. Some days are a lot worse then others and I feel so very lost. Part of me wishes I could flee Australia and go visit friends in other countries or even try and see the world again, maybe boost up my confidence. But being on limited funds has me looking at photos online instead for now.

Have one last bill to pay from the hospital and of course they got me when I can't afford it. I'll have to see if there is a way that I might be able to pay it in sections. I do recall they are happy to do things like that.

I have been losing weight which is nice though eating is another thing. I find it hard to eat or even look at food as it suddenly makes my stomach turn. Can't seem to eat meat which is making me terribly lethargic and grumpy but I have been able to eat some fruit and veggies.

I'll need to start saving soon for the next surgery that will need to be done in a year or two to get rid of excess skin as not all the skin will retract back. I think that will be 9k+. My aunt had to get it done so I do need to give her a poke to see how much it does cost.

I will try and be more cheerful soon, I just need a little time to get past this dark cloud I am trapped by. Thank you as well for all the well wishes. It's really helping me through this uncertain time for me.

Well... Surgery is one the 16th this month and I am terrified.

Will be in hospital for 3 days (hopefully) and be bed ridden for a good few weeks.